The Last Thing I Googled
Dear dreamer,
I googled “standing on business” and pulled up this result:
"Standing on business" is a slang term that means to prioritize your values, take care of your responsibilities, and follow through. It can also mean to handle your own affairs, or to be about your grind. The phrase has been part of African American Vernacular English (AAVE) for a long time, but has recently become more popular due to rapper Drake and internet comedian Druski. Drake uses the phrase in the lyrics of his song "Daylight" from his album For All The Dogs.
I don’t know if Drake is taboo these days or what (never had strong feelings about him), and I had a sense (and am not surprised to confirm) that such a powerful-feeling phrase could be credited to AAVE. It’s a phrase that I love, but I probably won’t say it myself because that would feel like I was pulling something out of a culture that I’m not genuinely part of (I mean I haven’t listened to a Drake song since I was going to drunken college parties and have never heard of Druski–that will be my next google), and would likely end up just making me look like a dorky dad.
So instead I’ll just say that my whole life has been changing lately.
And for the first time ever, I understand the worth of my offerings and the value of my presence.
And I’m really proud of myself for getting to this place–it’s taken a lot of healing to get here.
It’s been a long time that I’ve been pouring myself out all over from a sense of obligation.
But I get to pour into the things that pour back into my soul. And that’s not only allowed–it feels like a real reclamation of my power too.
I’m learning how to focus my energy, which means shaving off the edges where I feel too sprawled out.
A lot is clearing out of my life right now.
And I want to see if I can keep that empty space a bit–resist the impulse to fill it back up right away with stuff–so I can practice the art of waiting and listening for what wants to emerge from that empty space.
This all means a couple tangible things:
Dream Correspondence is no longer being offered at $25. For now it’s $45 for 30 days of access to message me about your dreams and to receive my insights & prompts in response.
All of my offerings will likely go up in price at some point within the year. You may want to take advantage soon if you’ve been thinking about it.
The last free Artist Gatherings I’m hosting will be May 26 and June 30! After that I gotta take a break. It’s been a really beautiful space to host but after June I’m doing like a whole reset, reassessing everything, and figuring out what’s next. So if you’ve got work that could use feedback, get in on those gatherings for May and June!
Honestly, change is one of my favorite things in life. And while I’m really excited for what’s around the bend, it’s also vulnerable to fully step into change, out loud and in action. So I really appreciate each of you being here in the passenger seat while I drive!
Love,
Tsuyuno
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